The year 2017 is coming to an end. Is there anything you are thankful for in this year? When I think about what I had went through throughout this year, I realised, I have received the best gift to be thankful for to the Lord.
It started out good in the beginning of this year. I was really happy that 2017 had a good start because 2016 was really bad for me. I received a bonus pay and a thank you from my boss for my hard work from the company I worked for despite me having submitted my resignation letter. A relationship that I thought was going to end with my ex boyfriend, got restored at the start of the year 2017.
Everything was good until towards the middle and end of the year. I ended up broken-hearted, disappointed with myself and with the decisions I made for my life. I thought he was the love of my life and when it hit me that things didn’t go the way I wanted it to be, I broke down. It was not an easy journey and I thought I had my feelings under control. I was wrong, I couldn’t go through this heart pain by myself. When it got so hard in controlling the crazy emotions I felt in me, I prayed and cried my heart out to the Lord every single moment I am alone with the Lord. The pain, the hurt, it was so bad that I could not explain them in terms of words.
However, as I spent more time with the Lord, pouring all I had in my heart to Him, I began to experienced a whole new level of love that I had never experience before in my whole life. I was born in a christian family, baptised, and accepted Jesus as my life savior, but never really let Him lead my life His way. I had always do things based on my judgement and feelings for my decisions. I had never really pause and take a moment to ask the Lord if the decision I make is right or wrong. I realised I often ignored that little nudge I had in my heart whenever I did not feel the peace once the decision is made.
Being so gracious and merciful the Lord is, He only sees me as His precious loving child and did not leave me alone to feel the pain on my own. I managed to get out of my pain towards the end of the year of 2017 and hence that is when I started out my blog posts in the first place. The Lord has strengthened the Holy Spirit living in me the more I was led to His teachings in the bible. I began to meditate on this verse when I came upon it:
James 1:21-25 “Therefore lay aside all filthiness and overflow of wickedness, and receive with meekness the implanted word, which is able to save your souls. But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves. For anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man observing his natural face in a mirror; for he observes himself, goes away, and immediately forgets what kind of man he was. But he who looks into the perfect law of liberty and continues in it, and is not a forgetful hearer but a doer of the work, this one will be blessed in what he does.”
I love how this verse is speaking to me telling me that if I plant his word in my heart, my inner soul will be saved. By being saved here, not only I meant emotionally saved but also in strengthening the Holy Spirit living in me and take over my weak thoughts and flesh. The verse continues in explaining how by implanting the word of God is not just read and hear but to do what is being taught in the bible and apply it in my worldly life.
“But he who looks into the perfect law of liberty and continues in it, and is not a forgetful hearer but a doer of the work, this one will be blessed in what he does”
The last sentence I underlined above is what I have carved in my mind. I had mentioned how I failed as a christian, and I realised that I have the “perfect law of liberty” all along with me once I accepted Jesus as my life savior. I was just not relying on Him and failed to look at Him all the time in every situation of my life. When I carved the underlined verse in my mind, it becomes easier for me to be a “doer” and not just a “hearer”. The best of it all, when “doing” the word of God gets easier in my life because of Jesus, not only my life becomes easier to live, I will be rewarded by the Lord with more blessings. I cannot wait to see what He has plan for my life and always anticipate of what to come.
I will like to end this post with a prayer of thankfulness to the Lord.
“Dear Heavenly Daddy, I thank you for Your unending grace and mercy. For you have redeemed me from my sins and pain through the blood of Jesus Christ, Your Beloved Son, whom is now living within me, living my life for me and making my decisions for me. Although in the beginning of the year I am thankful that You have given me the worldly desires, You have given me an even bigger blessings I could ever ask for towards the end of this year of 2017. For You have strengthened the Holy Spirit in me, for it is said in the bible that the Spirit searches all things, yes, the deep things of God (1 Cor 2:10). For this, I thank You. There is no one who magnifies Christ as the Holy Spirit does and I know His most intense desire is to reveal Jesus Christ to me.
Thank You, Daddy, for this privilege You have given me to grow deeper and closer to You, and I know no one can ever take away this personal relationship I have with You from me. You have shown me through the Holy Spirit that the end of 2017 is just the beginning of my blessings. So, whatever may happen in this world, I will NOT be afraid anymore because I know ALL things work together for good. I love You, Daddy God. I love You, Jesus and thank You for being my Savior and The Teacher of my life. In Jesus name, I pray, Amen.”
“Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man. The things which God has prepared for those who love Him. But God has revealed ‘them’ to us through His Spirit. For the Spirit searches all things, yes, the deep things of God” (1 Corinthians 2:9-10)
Just want to show a happy picture of me: